What the hell are we doing?

That's what I say to myself. 


I'm sitting inside my warm & cozy living room while watching the rain fall outside. I have food in my stomach, a roof over my head, money to pay the bills, music that fills my ears, but when I wake up tomorrow all of this could be gone. 


Haitians are said gross 1,300 per year. 80% percent of Haitians are below the poverty line which means they don't make 1,300 PER YEAR. One thousand and three hundred dollars. That's less than half of Jared's paycheck every two weeks. We get by off that & more every 2 weeks and Haitians typically earn that in one year. I cannot imagine it. 


Jared & I have been talking a lot about Haiti. We've seen the horrific photos, videos, and heard some of the most gut-wrenching stories. It brings us to tears more times than not to hear people talk about what's going on in Haiti. They survive on what we could call "nothing". I think about all the things that I have that I think I couldn't survive without (i.e. cell phone, laptop, music, food every day, clean water every day, bathroom facility etc.) and it makes me furious that I have become so accustom to living life this way. Don't get me wrong- I know I am very blessed and God has blessed us with the means to live this life that we do. I am very thankful, but I also take it all for granted. I take it ALL for granted. 


Life is not about having all of these "things"! (Here comes the rant...)  


People are dying and we are saying we need more material things.


(I'm not saying material things are bad, but they are not the substance of life.) 


I feel so angered because of where money is being spent. Where my money is being spent, where the government's money (America's money) is being spent, and where the church's money is being spent. A church that Jared & I have debating fully joining is now building an expensive cat walk from their parking garage to their church. God forbid the church goers get wet while walking into the church. People are hiding underground to attend church in some countries, but in America we build cat walks. In America we are fed this health, wealth and prosperity gospel that tells us that if we believe their message that God will "richly bless our lives". What about taking all that money for the cat walk and putting it into counties like Haiti, Africa, China- the places that really need it and help them build up their churches and send others out to do the same. What if the health, wealth, and prosperity thieves preachers actually put ALL the money they receive into other people's pockets instead of their own. What if all the money that was coming in to Christian churches and ministries went to help those in need. I know that churches and ministries have to pay bills too. The money that is left over needs to be sent out. It needs to go toward helping those in need. 


Look at where your money is going. Are you tithing so that your church is able to send people out to spread the gospel? Are you spending your money on crap that you don't need? I know I have. Just think about what you're doing and how you could impact someone else's life by the means which God has given you instead of your own frivolous gain. 


Rant is over. I just couldn't hold my tongue any longer.